Maggie

april 3rd (thursday)

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 02:28:24 GMT

toda y was a pretty good day , played ultimate frisbee in jogging (LOVED IT) and later i walked to the rec and did weights for 40 minutes.
starbucks mocha light tall- 100 calories
salad/fruit- 200 (?)
orange-60
smoothie king-125
extra (mints,gum)-50
i hope im losing weight, everything still fits fine (size 12 still)...my legs seem to not be shrinking but my stomach feels smaller.

dum spiro,spero

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 17:19:23 GMT

ate too much
fruit: canteloupe,apple bits with coconut and strawberry slices- ~200 calories (?)
feel fat for it now too much just kept getting more i was hungry and wanted more i should have had that much though! gah disappointment

tues 4/1/08

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 21:57:26 GMT

today h as been alright so far- i woke up and didn't even want to get out of bed ,i had no motivation to keep going, did bad in computer science, came back to my room and just sat for a while, i feel so lazy when i do that but the i had jogging and it made me feel more accomplished, exercise always makes me feel better, but sometimes im scared i can't do something so i dont go . kept seeing a bunch of guys i know and of course id just came from jogging so i looked a mess

lunch- salad with fruit - 50 calories
coffee
coffee
orange- 70 calories

ran-burned 477 calories going to go lift weights later

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:49:30 GMT

salad
grapes-25
bluleberries-25
pistachios-100
bit of chicken-50
sugar free pudding-60
sugar free whipped cream-60
extra-80
400 calories

came back to school, dont want to be here

Day 4 of aBC

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 05:48:46 GMT

300 calories allowed
vegetables/salad-
1/2 yogurt - 50 calories
1 cup fruit-50 calories
coffee- 50 calories
soup broth with a few lentils-100 calories (over do but was very hungry)
salad:
ham-50?
corn-50 calories ?
cranberries- 50 calories
light ranch 1/2 tbsp- 25
coffee with spenda-0

Ran for 50 minutes,burned 500 calories, moody,foul mood. angry, no one gets it. failure,waste, done,dont have the energy or desire to be friendly,or kind or really care about much of anything. very numb to everything-nothing really effects me anymore...i want to just stop

"barely surviving has become my purpose, because im so used to living beneath the surface"

Day 4 of ABC

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 18:22:49 GMT

400 Calories allowed today

Vegetables/Salad/kidney beans-50 calories
1/2 cup Yougurt -50 calories
Fruit- 50 calories
Coffee-50 calories
Total- 200 calories as of 1:22

Day 3

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 21:50:08 GMT

300 Calories Allowed
salad with carrots,cucmbers,and bit of fruit- 50 calories
plain yogurt 1/2 cup - 50 calories
fruit-50 calories
coffee-50
as of 5pm 200 calories
Im planning on getting a smoothie king smoothie- 124 calories ,so that will put me over 24 calories, but maybe if I dont drink it all that will help. Im actually hungry today, but whatever. I had my jogging class-40 minutes =400 calories .Going to the gym for an hour at 7, burn hopefully 300 maybe . Feeling tired,lazy,wastefull. I know i can lose this weight!

Day 2 of ABC

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:51:50 GMT

500 calories allowed
lunch: Salad with bit of fruit and raisins ~50 calories
             1/2 cup yogurt with fruit -100 calories
              Coffee with milk-50 calories
  snack           Starbucks Coffee-100 calories
dinner   Smoothie King Slim N Trim -124 calories
Total for today 424 calories

Worked Out for 45 minutes did good- burned 550 calories

4pm-Feel very tense and upset, in such a foul mood . I despise the way I look, I feel pointless..I wish I looked like how I used to,back in the day when everything fit i wasn't this double number size and I was actually alright looking... I dont even realize how huge I am until I see pictures then its reality that I am this huge.. I wish I just got it that Im fat ,im stout like a tree trunk, I dont even have good curves, its just plain fat.
10pm-still feel fat but resisted to urge to eat 100 calorie bag of popcorn and had celery instead ..proud of that, thighs-still huge

Whatever It Takes

Day 2

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 20:31:27 GMT

Day 2 of ABC - 500 calories limit. so far:
   Sugar Free Candy- 30 calories (yesh)
    Non Fat Capuccino -90
    Mints- 20 calories (?)
   Coffee-40 calories
Total: 180 calories by 3:30pm
a little tired but NEED to go to gym.
one week today pop passed away... at the library "homework"

Day 1

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 01:30:48 GMT

I started the ABC diet today, it said I could have 500 calories, but I haven't had that just yet.
    >French Vanilla Cappuccino- 100 calories approx
    >Coffee with bit of milk- 50 calories
    >Mints- 20
    > Sprite Zero- 0 calories, 50mg sodium

I have no desire for food just yet, i just feel to down for food, it feels so good to accomplish something, i just have to stick with it. I didn't exercise today however, I need to get back into my routine, since ive been out of commission for a week, i think im jsut scared that I won't be able to run as far, or burn as many calories.. failing in exercising scares me so much .